Transitions

These are tough for me. I (and we) are dealing with several at the moment. For starters, Rich (babysitter) up and quit on us last week with basically zero notice. In fact, it was the night before we needed childcare. He had a perfectly valid reason, citing the difficulty of having two newly mobile babies and blah, blah, blah. I completely get it. It is definitely much tougher now with Theo mobile. Not to mention eating three meals a day, nap schedules, etc. It’s a lot of work. I wouldn’t want to watch Theo and another child. Anyhow, it was the fact that he sent us a nonchalant email, like, by the way… I can’t watch Theo anymore even though you sent me an email 4 days ago asking if I could watch him tomorrow and the next day. I don’t think he was malicious (he was out of town before that) I just can’t help but think it was rude of him to minimize our need. Don’t leave us hanging like that! He would love to keep the kids in touch and was happy they were able to benefit from spending that time with one another. So, now we are at a crossroads trying to figure out our next child care move.

And, then, BOOM! Jay got a full-time job starting tomorrow through Sept (at least). We are now looking into a few day care centers in our neighborhood as this is the first time we have needed consistent care and it will cost less if we go this route as opposed to a nanny. Although we are still exploring that, as well. We both feel a bit conflicted about this decision. On the one hand, I think it will be great for Theo to be in a consistent, structured environment each day with other children. He LOVES watching other kids and also just watching everything around him. He is hungry to learn and before we know it he will be walking. I’m happy for him to get to have all that a good day care facility has to offer. It just breaks my heart a little. Because I’m not with him and because he is already getting so big. It’s a transition. These are very positive, good transitions. I just have to get used to them. Used to Jay not being around so much and with Theo so much. And, used to Theo being with other people more then either of us.

I’m also having changes at work and that’s tough. I’m sort of in a place where I need to decide if I want to go back to 5 days/week (I’ve been working 4 days since maternity leave ended) and if I want to step up and possibly manage the Program I have been working in for the past few years. Although, the agency is undergoing an organizational assessment (yikes!) and the budget is frozen right now so nothing is happening. So, lots to think about and lots to get used to.

We have a tour today of a great, potential place. We’ll see how it goes. I hope only wonderful things are on the horizon for us.